One of the worst feelings in the world is packing up a house filled with memories of family that you cannot touch, kiss, or hug anymore. As I try to finish packing up this house, I have to box up both of my daughter’s rooms. Looking at their toys fills my heart with sadness as I’m reminded of times where I bought them the toy and the happiness that was in my heart as I watched them play with it. Looking at pictures that I have to take down because I can no longer stay at this residence breaks me down. Packing up the rest of my wife’s clothes reminds me of the good times that we had before the bad ones took over and got us to this point. Being a man, I have to stay tough and cope with the pain. Even though my family is gone because of the separation between my wife and myself, I still will continue to provide for them and be there for them the best way I can.
Growing up and watching television shows and seeing people that have to go through separation before a divorce never really prepares you. Among family members it is a topic that is rarely discussed. You may talk to friends that went through the process before, but every situation is different. Where they may have had a separation on bad terms because both sides ended up hating each other before they could end it, you and your spouse came to terms on your separation before it got worse and are still friends. Sometimes you wish there was a manual on how to deal with every situation step-by-step to help deal with the hurt.
Out of dealing with this pain, I have found positive ways to deal with my time that are not taken by my daughters, wife, or dog any longer.Convos In The Park, which is something that was just an idea for several months prior to the separation, became my outlet. My goal was that by talking about one of my favorite genres of music as well as relationship and social issues, I would be able to help someone that is going through the same issues as myself. Helping them cope through conversations, albeit not face-to-face, but for them to know that someone is out there that they can talk to in some form or fashion so they will not have to hold feelings in. If I’m able to touch at least one person’s life and help them get through a situation by them being able to relate to one of my videos or posts, then I’ve reached my goal.
As I continue on with Convos In The Park, I hope that I will be able to reach more people. I hope that I will be able to create videos where I have conversations with people that have the same ambition as myself and we as a group, are able to touch someone’s life that needed help or support at that moment of watching the video. Some may call me a dreamer, but this is also my therapy as well as helping others at the same time. Lastly, I hope that enjoyment can also be found in my content. Creating this content helps me get though my separation issues.
What I would like to know is how do you deal with your separation or break-up period with your significant other. Let us know in the comments below so that we may continue the conversation. Are you in that convo yet? Why not?!!